Apartment

I had a fairly long list of things to do and i managed pretty well. I am unable to move forward on my apartment. I have brought myself in to this position by bringing in two people who seem to have vested interests in this project. I find it hard to trust both. One, who claims to be my friend, seems more interested in making money out of me. The other, i do not know what this person wants. I just need to remove myself from the shackle of these two and move forward to completing this project on my own.

Both of them seem to have very definite ideas on how i should live. I do not agree with either of them.

All i want is for someone to execute the interiors of my house to my expectations. The way i want it done. Instead I have people trying to add value by thinking. I am therefore an unwilling victim of their constipated thinking. People give their suggestions like they know something. They possibly think their suggestions are actually welcome. To hell with these people.

I guess I just have to take charge of the situation. I am not the kind who can soft peddle, therefore i must be prepared for some emotional outbursts. I should also be prepared for some social repercussions. If that is what it takes to live the way I want, so be it.

Thought for the day

"There is danger there - a very real danger to humanity. Consider, Watson, that the material, the sensual, the worldly would all prolong their worthless lives. The spiritual would not avoid the call to something higher. It would be the survival of the least fit. What sort of cesspool may not our poor world become?" - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle in the words of Sherlock Holmes.

1000 words a day

Ray Bradbury said that if you wirte 1000 words day, every day then you can become a writer. Today i shall begin.

Sean Connery in the movie Finding forrester said, "write first, think later". I shall try to do the same.

One more attempt at all the jotting down all the random thoughts that run through my head.

Played a game of scrabble online and lost. Am in the process of losing another one. It is just a game. So what. Perhaps my vocabulary of six and seven letter words is limited. Need to build that up. If you read my blog, you will find hardly any six and seven letter words. I need to improve my vocabulary of words with no vowels.

Why am I writing like this? I think that i am wiriting to an audience. There is a part of me that is conscious of the fact that people do read this blog. So am i being entirely honest? Is this going to keep me from being honest? Should I just go back to writing in my diary and not sharing my thoughts. OR should i filter these thoughts?

Perhaps I should just pick a noun and write about it as suggested by Ray Bradbury. Let me start with the noun "Friend". Let us see what the dictionary has to say about this word. Hang on. I've got to get my oxford dictionary. There is no other that is worth looking up.

Friend (n). 1. a person that one likes and knows well. 2. a familiar or helpful thing. 3 a person who supports a particular cause or organisation

Someone once told me this, " Some people maybe friendly but they may not be your friend. Some people maybe unfriendly but they may be your friend"

I guess friendship is very important to one's well being. Of the five books that comprise the panchatantra, two are dedicated to friends. The first book which is the largest is called "the loss of friends". This book has 34 stories. The second a smaller book is called the "winning of friends" has 10 stories. what does this tell you? There are more ways to lose friends than to win them? I don't know.

The definition of a friend does not have the word "loyal" or the concept of loyatly attached to it. Let us take definition 2 of the word friend, 'a familiar or helpful thing'. It is implicit that if a thing or person ceases to be helpful, he/she is no longer a friend.

I cannot agree with the first definition of friend 'a person that one likes and knows well'. We like someone because we do not know them well enough. When you know someone well enough then a choice is made to like them inspite of their short comings. There are times, more often than not, when you dislike someone after you get to know them. Then do they stop being friends? What do you do if you do not want to be friends with someone? That is easy enough. Just stop talking to them.

What happens when you think that someone is your friend but they do not think the same? What do you do when people get friendly with you just to use you? I do not know who my friends are. What can you expect from friends? Can you expect anything at all?

One can expect gifts from friends. This gift and act if gifting is an expression of this friendship. Your friends gift you things that they think you want or need. Most often they get it wrong. At least i do. And the moment of truth is when the recipient of the gift opens the gift and tries to conceal their disappointment or fake happiness.

Can I expect a friend to make sacrifices for me? Am i a good friend if I expect my friend to make a sacrifice?

I expect a friend to give me time when i need it. Is this a realistic expectation?

I expect a friend to maintain confidences and not use information given in confidence to mock me or hurt me. This has never happened.

Can i expect a friend to not be friends with those i am not friends? fat chance!